Sometimes this is how my day starts

Sometimes this is how my day starts:

Waking

and feeling that life is

just too much

This is not a cry for help, nor is it a request for advice. I just find it helpful to say it out loud, that’s all. I’ve lived through plenty of days like this, and no doubt, with God’s help, I will get through this one too. Thank you for listening.

Finding stuff I’d lost

It’s over two years since I finished the counselling course and I’m still finding stuff that I’d lost back then. I had no idea what that course would cost me, and am still finding out.

Not a clue where I’m going – can you cope with that?

“So what is it that you’re doing with yourself these days?” “Are you still working on that novel?” “How are you getting on with finding work in the field you trained for?” I get these questions from well-intentioned people, who are – poor lambs – trying to keep track of what’s going on with me. [...]

Can’t afford to listen

Wrote this a few days ago. It worked. I wake with depression all over me It speaks to me of hopelessness it wants me to

Useful weapons

I wrote earlier about my battle with SAD, about choosing to listen to the voice of experience as opposed to the voice of doom and gloom – depression tells me I can’t do anything, depression calls me to give up, but the voice of experience reminds me that I’ve been through this before and I’ve come [...]

Learning not to listen to the lies

once again waking up feeling tired, feeling like I need time out, I can’t do anything today, I need to just curl up on the sofa with the Saturday paper and – – - but experience tells me that the blues have to be fought against, not succumbed to. and even better: experience tells me [...]