if I stay in my shell I won’t get hurt but I won’t get hugged either

I have always, as long as I can remember, felt like an alien, like someone who doesn’t fit in. Socially awkward. Easily tongue-tied. Very often feeling like I don’t know what normal people would say in a given situation and … Continue reading →

a rambling about art/vocation/passion/gifts

I’m reading a novel about a Hassidic Jewish boy who was born with a gift. He is under pressure from his father to turn his back on what his papa regards as “foolishness”, but Asher simply can’t stop drawing, the … Continue reading →

Lots of good mornings!

The reboot worked! Hooray! I’m glad I didn’t stay with the 6.30 wake-up time though – that felt a bit over the top, and meant I was getting seriously sleepy at a ridiculous time in the evenings. I had images … Continue reading →

Night Owl Reboot

It’s 4pm and I’ve just had a short rest with the newspaper and a cup of coffee. I’ve been up since around 7am and, for a change, at 4pm I feel like it’s actually afternoon and not the start of … Continue reading →

Can’t be bothered to procrastinate

or: Meirav Becomes a Grown-up Last week started with: oh dear, I’ve got a busy week ahead of me and there’s this big project that I have to finish in November and when will I be able to squeeze that … Continue reading →

One day in June… 18 years ago

[Warning: this post contains pain. You may want to look away now. Especially if you've experienced domestic abuse.] Memories sometimes resurface even though you’ve dealt with stuff. Today I find myself remembering a day in June 1994, when I suddenly … Continue reading →

Wow, last night was really horrible

So grateful to wake up today in a different place. Last night I got to a really really low point, and I’m sharing this here because I feel it’s good to record what happened and to say, to myself and … Continue reading →

Looking back can be good

Looking back can be really helpful sometimes, because you can see how far you’ve come… I’ve sometimes heard people say you shouldn’t dwell on the past. Sure, some people do dwell on it far too much and it can be … Continue reading →

Twenty years ago

It’s funny how stuff you read can suddenly trigger emotions, one minute you’re just browsing posts on Google+ in a leisurely fashion and the next moment you’re hit by something so strongly that you just have to do something – … Continue reading →

The Cool People

Hey, can I come and play with you? Can I be part of your gang? hey, why don’t I get invited to those parties? why… I’m a child at school and I’m in the non-popular majority in my class. We … Continue reading →