Can’t be bothered to procrastinate

or: Meirav Becomes a Grown-up Last week started with: oh dear, I’ve got a busy week ahead of me and there’s this big project that I have to finish in November and when will I be able to squeeze that … Continue reading →

Wow, last night was really horrible

So grateful to wake up today in a different place. Last night I got to a really really low point, and I’m sharing this here because I feel it’s good to record what happened and to say, to myself and … Continue reading →

So what’s the pay-off?

As I struggle with this crazy procrastination tendency, every now and again I hear a voice in my head which goes back to my counselling training – if you keep repeating a behaviour pattern that seems so very clearly unconstructive, … Continue reading →

How a smart girl got 2 out of 10 in maths

This story goes back a few decades… When I was 15 I decided to leave school and get a job. School was boring, and leaving part-way through was clearly a step forward in my career as Black Sheep of the … Continue reading →

Today I did!

I joke a lot about being a procrastinator, but it is a serious battle and I’m therefore pausing to pat myself on the back: today I did something that I’ve never done before – I posted all my seasonal greeting cards in time for the second class post deadline. It’s always tended to be a last minute job, I’ve always needed to use first class stamps because of posting so late, and here I am on 16th December able to say it’s done!

Husband was very impressed, and I found myself explaining to him how it worked: I was so not wanting to do it, that I did it just so that I could get this task out of the way, so that I could put it behind me.

But hearing myself say that, I recognise that this is something I’ve never said before in my whole life. I’ve always