No, I’m not drunk

I just got home to find that someone, somehow, despite all the security I have in place, managed to get into my WordPress account, pick three posts from my Drafts folder, and publish them. Two on this blog and one … Continue reading →

wow. for me? wow. thank you.

“And you, who once were alienated and hostile in mind, doing evil deeds, he has now reconciled in his body of flesh by his death, in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before him” https://bible.com/bible/59/col.1.21-22.ESV Wow. … Continue reading →

Come and see!

I was standing by the back door and looking at a tree. Specifically: at a little branch, with spring buds, in the gentle sunlight. My heart ached with the beauty of what I was seeing, and I felt: I’d love to share this beauty with people online, but I know I can’t. I can take a picture and share that (and for what it’s worth, here it is) but the picture won’t do it justice. Even if I edit it on Snapseed or whatever – it still won’t really show the beauty that I saw.

And words can’t do it either, even though I’m good with words.

And I thought: it’s a bit like

virtually homeless? not quite

You know the feeling when your favourite bar/pub/café shuts down? The place where you go to hang out with your friends, where you bump into people regularly who you might never get seriously close to but you always nod and … Continue reading →

Pause. (but sadly no rewind)

One essay submitted, next one awaits but I’m pausing to recharge before I start working on that one. The one I’ve just done took the stuffing out of me, and left me feeling exhausted and also really sad. People around … Continue reading →

not the essay I’m supposed to be writing

taking a break from essay preparation because I just realised why I’m hating it so much and what I really deeply need to do right now. It’s a bit like taking a break from, say, sorting through a pile of … Continue reading →

It’s easy, they say: just don’t be a jerk.

If you hang out on social media for any length of time, you’ll come across a variation on this supposedly simple rule. And I’d love to be able to say yeah, sure, it’s simple, why can’t people… but I know … Continue reading →

things I didn’t say last night

I’m getting better at keeping my mouth shut and not snapping at people when they say things that annoy me. Also not correcting people whenever they say something stupid. But I still have a blog, so here I can say … Continue reading →

knowing who I am

various moments today when I cringed as I saw myself in the mirror – and I don’t mean physically: I mean seeing glimpses of the ugliness in my heart… hearing myself speak about other people in a voice full of … Continue reading →

I hope you dance, she said.

There was a course I was doing about a decade ago where our main tutor introduced us to a song that was meant to encourage us: it was all about grasping our chances and going for it – “when you … Continue reading →