a rambling or two

these two kind of go together really.

a rambling

oh, but can’t I…
just a little bit…
before I turn to you and say sorry – can’t I be a little bit horrid to people first?

oh, sure, you’re free to do that. [said in very sad tone of voice]
you’re free to
but

you won’t enjoy it

ah yes, I know. I don’t enjoy it any more. that’s because you’ve been changing me, right?

rambling #2

oh, but they’re hurting me
can’t I hurt them back?
I really feel like
yelling at them
throwing nasty words at them
hurting them back

but I know
you call me to a better way
you challenge me to do more than
just being nice to those who are nice to me
and you’re the one who showed the world what it’s like
to stay loving and gracious even
while people were hurting you

help me to live up to your standards, Lord.
and I’m sorry for the ugliness in my heart
which makes me want to hurt people sometimes

thank you that you have been, slowly but surely, changing me from the inside and that even though there is still ugly stuff in my heart, I no longer take joy in hurting people, in putting them down, cutting them down to size.

and thank you, more than anything, for loving me and dying in my place without waiting for me to become good enough, without demanding that I prove I’m worthy – because, hey, you and I know that I’m not.

thank you, Jesus, my Lord and Saviour, my Messiah, my Redeemer, the Passover Lamb and the Great High Priest.

One thought on “a rambling or two

Questions? Thoughts? Talk to me - I don't bite :)

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s